And now I see that I have reached the top,
the very top of a mountain,
and I see it all,
the life I led.

Standing here looking down on the life I led,
I can’t help but feel a little envious,
of the life that I myself led,
looking back with the sun shining on my back
and a tear in my eye

This accidental life that I led,
all because I was running,
away from something.

It might just be time.
Time to face that past,
that which I’m running from,
And stop running

Standing at the edge of this cliff,
perhaps its time,
to let it all go.\

Perhaps its time to take a leap of faith,
and let myself fly
and for the first time,
not away from something,
not towards something…
but to just fly..

💡 Note
The date of writing this is unclear. All I know is that it was before May 2007

I knew it my heart,
even though I doubted it,
now and again.

My love was not for a purpose,
it simply was.

I knew this but I forgot.\

I wanted nothing back,
I wanted nothing forward.

I just wanted to be,
I just wanted to love.

It is easy to get confused,
Who loves?

Is it me, my heart, my soul?\

Is it wrong that I miss her?\

To be with her fills me with joy,
fills me with happiness,

Is that not selfish?

Should I not let her be?

Let her do what she wants?

as long as it makes her happy!

Indeed, but I still miss her,
and all I want to do,
is what I can to make her smile,
to bring a little joy into her life.\